STOP waiting for friday

STOP

We often wait for Friday. For Summer. For Birthday’s. For Christmas.

We are waiting so often that we forget to live in the moment.

Do you realize how many moments pass us by that are life altering, exciting and memorable because we are waiting for Friday?

Why do we even wait for Friday?

Is it because society has deemed Friday to be a ‘good’ day. Why can’t anything great Happen Monday-Thursday?

Have you ever noticed that when you are waiting for something it rarely happens?

Not only does it rarely happen, but think back to the saying “a watched pot never boils” the longer you ‘watch’ or wait for something to happen, the longer it takes for it to happen. Stop waiting for greatness to be achieved, for happiness to take place, to fall in love..

Start living life one day at a time, set goals you can accomplish little by little, day by day, stop focusing on the end but focus on the progress that occurs as each day passes.

When you start living in the now, you will start appreciating life’s small accomplishments. You will start being HAPPY.

I am a true believer that lack of happiness is often associated with looking so far ahead that we miss all of life’s blessing that are right in front of us.

We forget to appreciate ‘the little things’ because we are so focused on the ‘BIG THINGS’. But we must not forget that it is the little things that make up the big things.

It is the small steps we take each day.

That smile from a stranger.

The touch of another human.

The conquering of step 1 of our goal.

The connection with a new place.

Each and every feeling that passes through us, guides us towards happiness.

So STOP WAITING and start living.

XOXO,

to embracing the little things

the best year yet..

25 has been the best year yet.

The day after my birthday someone had said to me that 25 would be a good year. I honestly thought sure.. I already felt I had my life in order. I have a good job, I am a home owner, and I was starting to get a pretty good routine with my fitness and nutrition.

Shortly after this conversation, I had a mindset change, completely unrelated to that conversation, it was just something I had decided was necessary.

So I began to exhibit and exude a positive energy.

Eliminate those that were negatively impacting my life and bringing me down.

I began to attract positive people into my life and make choices that impacted me positively as well.

This doesn’t mean I am perfect, I still make mistakes, sometimes I am sad or angry, but for the most part I have turned my mindset almost an entire 180.

And I must admit, that person was right. 25 has been a really good year. The best year.

I finally know who I am, and the person I want to be. I go after what I want and I let nothing hold me back.  I allow myself to love, be honest, and connect with people and again I do not hold back. I am not ashamed to share my thoughts or feelings and I own all my thoughts and feelings.

I have progressed in my career, and I have progressed personally. I have so much to look forward to and so much to embrace over the next 18 months.

More than this, I fully intend to continue to strive to be more successful. There are so many more dreams that I want to chase and goals to crush.

“I want to go on a road trip someday. Alone or with someone I love…” I want to chase my dreams, chase the sun and watch the clouds. I want to listen to my favourite albums, sing along to my favourite lyrics and dance freely. I want to meet new people. I want to love new people. I want to connect with the world, with the places I go and with the people around me. I want to make memories with myself and make memories with those I meet along the way. “I want to feel alive..”

I am so excited for future years, because I truly believe that with positive thinking that good karma will come around and I will continue to see personal growth and continue to reach my goals.

I hope that I will find others that want to join me on my journey and are willing to embrace me and themselves. Together we can create new memories, go on adventures and fulfill our greatest dreams.

xoxo,

to the best year yet.

your flaws are perfect..

I read a quote today, “Your flaws are perfect for the heart that is meant to love you.”

This can be applied much beyond your “significant other” that does or will love you. This should be applied to all of those in your life.

We are all made up flaws, and perfection. We all hold traits that are viewed as perfect to others, and traits that may be viewed as completely imperfect.

It is when our imperfections draw people in that reveals those that truly love us.

When I think about those that matter most to me, as much as they may drive me crazy, confuse me, irritate me and at times make me want to scream, I love them. I unconditionally, and undoubtedly LOVE them.

I would go to the end of the earth for them and even when they make a mess of my kitchen and leave dishes unwashed, I cannot help but love them to pieces.

I have come to the realization of a couple things on my journey to living a happier and healthier life.

The first is that I do not want people in my life if they cannot accept that I am not perfect. Sometimes I am annoying, sometimes I make mistakes. But I will love you wholeheartedly and I would go to the end of the earth for you if you are a part of my tribe. If I am speaking honestly, I quite possibly would, even if you are not.

Secondly, once I stopped focusing on my imperfections and over thinking every word and action I made, I started to love myself. I started to embrace my flaws and set positive goals. I then started recognizing the triumphs and my progress started become much more evident.

I realized that my flaws are perfect. They are a part of who I am. There are many things about me that are imperfect. But I am loving, caring, honest, and always ready to embrace others. Most of all, I am willing to accept others flaws and not judge others for their imperfections, but see them as unique characteristics of that individual.

It’s not always easy, I have bad days that I cannot help but notice my flaws, but most days I embrace them and move forward.

You should to.

Because your flaws are perfect. Because your flaws make you, you. Because your flaws will attract the people that will love you unconditionally.

xoxo,

to being flawsome.

follow your dreams

Such a scary statement.

I cannot even count on my hands the amount of times I did not follow my dreams out of fear.

I would start thinking about all the scary points of “failure” in following my dreams, I would often look back on the past.

Then one day I woke up, and I decided to change my mindset.

I stopped focusing on the past.

I stopped letting fear get in the way.

I allowed the future to drive me.

When I needed to make choices or apply myself in order to go after my dreams, I stopped focusing on the scary points. I did not allow myself to look at the items that may scare me away . I simply jumped in.

It’s not always easy and I still often need to give myself a pep talk.

But, I realized this one day… Not going after my dreams results in a 100% outcome of me not accomplishing them, so going after even just one increases this outcome dramatically.

So what if I do not always get what I want, I am for sure not going to get anything I want by shying away and hiding from the scary leaps. At least if I make the leaps and then I am unsuccessful, I can say I tried.

Over this past year I have learned to follow your dreams and eventually you will start to reach goals. The goals you are not reaching, you will find ways to push yourself closer to them.

So always follow your dreams. Always push yourself futher. And never let fear get in the way.

XOXO,

to taking risks and making progress

having a big heart

I read an article today. It was titled “Don’t Apologize for Having a Big Heart.”

It really got me thinking, because I sincerely related to this article.

It spoke of being affected and attached to people. It spoke of falling without holding back.

When I care about someone, I ALWAYS do this.

Maybe I am falling for you as a friend, a lover, a mentor, a mentee. Whatever it may be, I always fall hard. I am affected by all around me, even those I do not “fall” for, I do still get attached.

I will not apologize for this and neither should you.

Having a big heart, a heart of gold, is what makes you who you are.

You are a wonderful person and there is no reason to change who you are.

Some people may get overwhelmed by your attachment or quick commitment to the relationship you share (whatever that may be).

Just because they get overwhelmed does not mean you should apologize for this.

Some people may put a wall up when you start to connect to them. This is because they are scared of the connection, not because there is anything wrong with you. Help them become comfortable with the connection by being proud of the person you are and loving even more.

Those of us with big hearts do not love everyone, but the ones we do love, we love hard and we value them.

Having a big heart means we are in touch with our emotions, we know how to relate and connect to others. We know when to embrace and hold back. We know when to sympathize. We know when to advise or listen. We just know what they need because we have allowed ourselves to connect deeply.

Most of all we know how to protect. We protect the people in our lives. We shelter them and let them fall around us whenever they may need to. The people in our lives know they can lean on us, confide in us and no matter what we will not judge and will continue to love them.

So please, never apologize for having a big heart. Understand that for some this may be difficult to accept. Some people cannot share and spread their emotions and love as easily, but that does not mean we are wrong in doing so.

Always love BIG, DEEPLY and without EXPECTATION.

xoxo,

to those of us with big hearts.

time doesn’t heal everything..

Despite what we are told, time does not heal everything.

That doesn’t mean this is a negative statement. In fact, for me, this is positive.

Time has not healed the hurt I experienced, but time has taught me to embrace it.

We all encounter traumatic events in our lives. What is traumatic for me, may not be traumatic for you. But, we all face traumatic events, this I am sure of.

We have events that challenge us, make us question our beliefs and morals, make us question our strength. Time may not heal all hurt, but it does make us stronger.

With time, we learn to live through the pain.

With time, we learn how to move forward despite the days we want to so badly give up.

With time, we learn how to grow stronger.

No matter how many minutes, hours, days, years have passed, I have never stopped hurting. But I have learned how to take that pain and create positive energy from it.

I have learned how to take the pain and use it to build up others and push myself to be better despite it.

I have learned to hide the pain, not always, but most days. I have learned to forget about my pain and help others with theirs. I have learned how to turn my pain into strength.

I never realized how strong I was until I had to wake up, live life, and move forward despite the deep desire to stay hidden in my room.

I also never realized how strong I was until I loved others deeply despite my fear of experiencing the heartache from one single day. To be able to love when you know how it feels to have not only your world, but your heart shattered is true strength.

Realizing my strength and being proud of it has been a difficult journey. A difficult journey that I am so proud of how much I have overcome. It has not been an easy journey but it has been amazing and I have realized both my strengths and weaknesses.

True strength can only be realized when we identify our weaknesses.

But, time does not always heal. I still hurt. I still wonder. I still cry.

I will never stop hurting, wondering or crying. But, I will draw from all of this and push forward.

I will push forward and push those around me to move forward as well.

Because time does not always heal but it does build strength.

xoxo,

to being stronger.

life is about…

This will be different for each of us.

BUT.. the actual conclusion of what “Life is about..” should result in the same thoughts for us all.

Life is about doing the things that make us happy, make the people we love happy, and push us to our limits.

For me life is about “trusting my feelings, taking risks, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change.”

I saw this quote and all I could think about was how true this was to me.

Over the past year, I have learned to trust my feelings. I will feel and love on my own accord. No one will influence this. I will love you because I choose to love you, I will dislike you because I choose to dislike you. No one will influence these feelings. I will share these feelings. I will express how I feel, and I will not be ashamed of my feelings, I will trust them and trust my instincts in who to trust and who to hold at arms length.

WILL take risks. I will say yes when I am scared, and I will step out of my comfort zone. I will push myself to be better and I will do things that may not always be easy, but will be necessary. I will make mistakes, and I will own those mistakes. I WILL do things that are scary and out of the norm to challenge myself and be the best me I can be.

Sometimes I will find happiness, sometimes I will lose it. I will not be afraid to lose happiness. I will reach out, I will try to connect and I will make choices that will add to my happiness.

Appreciate the memories.. I will try, yes TRY to appreciate the memories and stop dwelling on the pain.

The pain… Such a difficult thing to let go. I will focus on the good times, the memories that have made me the person I am today and appreciate that all I have experienced. All I have discovered, all the laughs, heartaches, tears, that make me who I am and I will appreciate this.

PROMISE to  learn from my mistakes. I will admit when I make mistakes, correct the action and be better next time. Mistakes will be made, and learning from them shows your integrity and commitment to being the best you can be.

People change, and that is okay. I will still love and support you. If I did not love you, I will open my heart to you. Sometimes people make mistakes, sometimes they come back better than ever. I will be ready to accept each and every person with open arms because people can change. But, you must want to change for you. Never change for anyone else.

But really, what is life about… Life is about connecting. Life is about loving. Life is about experiencing.

So connect with amazing people.

Love every soul that touches and impacts your life.

Experience all the amazing places, people and emotions out there.

Most of all be open to anything, anyone and everything in between.

XOXO,

filling my life with love, life and adventures.

so what, i’m sensitive.

I am highly sensitive.

I feel deeply. I overthink sometimes, okay a lot of the time. I love hard. I am emotional. I feel every word, every action and all the energy that surrounds me.

At one point in my life, I was ashamed of this.

I was ashamed, that a song, book, conversation could touch my heart in such a way that would bring tears to my eyes. In a way that would make my heart smile, ache, give me goosebumps.  I was ashamed that I felt so deeply for things that others did not.

But now I embrace this.

I stand strong and proud of the sensitive being I am.

It allows me to love deeply. To love all those important in my life, deeply.

If you enter my life, if you let me in, I promise to love and care for you. To be there to listen, to empathize or sympathize with you. To offer advice, or guide you to those who can give you the best advice. I promise to support you.

Being sensitive allows me to open my heart to those who need it most. I may not always have the answer, I may not always know the right things to say, but I will try my hardest to be there for you. To hold you when you need to be held and to give you space when you need space.

I am honest.

As a sensitive person I am honest, sometimes too honest. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I offer my true thoughts. I do not hide how I am feeling. If you ask for my opinion, I give it. Because I truly believe that being honest is the best way to show someone they can trust you. To show a person they can turn to you and you will tell them what they need to hear whether that may be good or bad.

I notice too much. I feel too intensely. I pay attention to all that is around me. I pick up on cues that most hope will go unnoticed and others choose to ignore.

I apologize. Second guess. Question.

I never stop doing the above three things.

Because while I will not apologize for who I am, I do understand that this can be overwhelming for others. I will ask too many questions, apologize a thousand times and second guess that thought I shared with you. I do all this because I am aware of the emotions and behaviours of others. I am aware that while I may want a response to these, others do not, they do not need a response or understand the need for one.

Being sensitive means that I understand I am not perfect, I understand others will not get it.

But it also means that I will love you with every ounce of my being. I would do anything for those I care about.

It means that I have a heart of gold.

I will love hard, dream wide and experience deeply. Being sensitive means I am strong.

It means that I am willing to give you my heart and accept that I will not receive yours in return. Being sensitive means I am okay with this.

Never be ashamed of being sensitive. Be PROUD. You are strong, you are willing to love, to care, to let in people who may not even know you exist.

This shows your true colours. It shows the world the wonderful human being you are. You are special. There are few of you out there, and you are still willing to be you and love strangers because your soul will not allow any different.

Embrace this amazing trait and strive to shine and expose this to all.

Being sensitive doesn’t mean you are weak. It doesn’t mean you are damaged. It means you love intensely, think deeply and embrace the touchy-feely that most repulse.

Above all, be proud of who you. Whether you are sensitive or “anti”- sensitive. Be proud of the person you are and accept those that are DIFFERENT then you. It takes all kinds to make this world the place it is. We must accept and embrace each other.

And last, but not least, never forget to love. Sensitive or not, always love.

XOXO,

wearing my heart on my sleeve.

me.

I saw this quote as I was ‘pinteresting’ today. I know very productive of my time..

But as I was browsing through Pinterest I came across “The one thing you have that nobody else has is you. Your voice, your mind, your story, your vision. So write and draw, build and play, and dance and live only as you can.”

I love this. I truly LOVE this. It is so simple. It is so unbelievably true.

This past weekend my mom read a few of these posts, and told me I should write a book. I told her she is biased, which is probably somewhat true, she is my mother after all. But if I look past that, one thing that is for sure. I am the only me. I am the only one that is thinking the exact thoughts going through me. I am the only one that has experienced all that I have experienced.

I think of all that I have experienced at this point in my life. At the ripe age of 25, the amount of tragedy, heartbreak, love, triumphs and failures that I have faced. The challenges that have crushed me, and that I later rose above from. The heartbreaks I experienced that broke me and that I have become a much stronger individual from over coming. And I wonder if I have already had enough experiences that have altered my life at this point, I am sure that I will encounter more, so maybe at some point I WILL have enough to write a book. But until then I will continue to write here and hopefully inspire even just one individual.

My hope in writing is to encourage others to chase their dreams. To learn to accept who they are. To love the person they are now, and the person they are striving to be.

We always have the ability to be our absolute best. It’s not always easy. We do not always stay on task. But if we set goals and work towards them, that’s all we can do. Continue to work towards greatness. To achieve the impossible. Sometimes we may fall off the path. The key is to get back at it. Recognize we have strayed from the path towards our goals and get back on track.

It’s easy to set goals and stick to it in the beginning. It’s hard to get back on track once we have strayed from these goals. I can admit to having a very difficult time getting back on track. In fact I am struggling with this right now. But I have committed to giving myself TWO more days to get back on track and then its 100% back to the grind.

It won’t be easy. But it will be worth it. My goal and I am putting it out there LOUD AND CLEAR for all to hold me accountable, is to lose 2 inches by April 24th off my waist.

I know this is possible because not long ago I lost 3 inches in just 3 short weeks, so to lose 2 in 5.5 is more than possible. All I need to do is commit. So here is my commitment written for all of you to keep me accountable. That is what its all about. Being accountable. That and sticking to the program and that is what I intend to do.

Here is to starting the next chapter to my journey. To overcoming new challenges. Challenges of “plateauing” which resulted in me becoming frustrated and ‘slacking’ not to mention I’ve been sick so I’ve had extra ‘slacking’ ability. If I have overcome the other challenges in my life that I have, then there is no reason I cannot over come this. So Sunday I start the 21-day Fix Extreme, because why not. I know I can crush it. So by April 9th, I will have lost at least 1-inch off my waist. So now I have to meet this goal and not disappoint.

In the meantime, I will relax these next two days mentally preparing myself, and hopefully kick this cold so I can jump in 1000%.

Are you with me? Have you set goals for yourself in the near future? Setting goals keeps you on tack and helps in keeping you accountable. I too can keep you accountable. All you need to do is ASK  and I will be there every step of the way.

Here’s to staying accountable.

XOXO,

this is me.

to trust or not to trust..

I was thinking about trust today. I am not even sure what got me thinking about it, it just kind of popped in my mind.

I was thinking about the whole concept of “trust is earned”. I do believe that certain levels of trust must be earned. For instance I am not going to share every little deep dark secret I hold with a complete stranger. But I think trust in it’s most general form does not necessarily need to be earned.

Waiting for trust to be earned may destroy new relationships, it may cause you to push some pretty wonderful people away.

Trust me, I am not one to easily trust, one may say I have “trust issues”. But this all stems from me constantly questioning myself, which I am doing much less of. With questioning myself less, and trusting myself more, I find that I am more open to trusting those around me.

Which leads me to this.. 

I think we need to trust ourselves first before we can trust others.

I believe in gut feelings, in instinctual feelings, in trusting our own judgements. 

If you have reason to question if you should trust someone then maybe they do not even deserve trust that can be later earned. 

You should be able to trust a person right from the start and in order to do so you need to trust your instincts to whether or not the person deserves that.

As humans, we are going to make mistakes, we are going to be blinded by new love, new promises and beauty, but deep down inside we know if something is telling us to turn around and run away.

Listen to yourself, listen to the doubts, listen to the hopefulness. Until you can trust what your inner self is telling you, how can you truly trust anyone else?

Trusting ourselves might be the most difficult. We are so scared of making mistakes, making the wrong decisions and letting in the wrong people. In order to trust yourself, you must accept that you will make mistakes sometimes, you will not always make the right decision and you will let people in that you never should have. But, this is all a part of life. Life is a learning process. We become stronger and better people because of all these things. 

To bring us back to the beginning, to trust or not to trust? I think this answer lies within our trust of ourselves and in our instincts. 

If your gut is telling you to trust someone, then by all means let them in and see where that takes you. Because although some levels of trust must be earned, all relationships must start with the basics of trust. 

Xoxo, 

To trusting myself.