me.

I saw this quote as I was ‘pinteresting’ today. I know very productive of my time..

But as I was browsing through Pinterest I came across “The one thing you have that nobody else has is you. Your voice, your mind, your story, your vision. So write and draw, build and play, and dance and live only as you can.”

I love this. I truly LOVE this. It is so simple. It is so unbelievably true.

This past weekend my mom read a few of these posts, and told me I should write a book. I told her she is biased, which is probably somewhat true, she is my mother after all. But if I look past that, one thing that is for sure. I am the only me. I am the only one that is thinking the exact thoughts going through me. I am the only one that has experienced all that I have experienced.

I think of all that I have experienced at this point in my life. At the ripe age of 25, the amount of tragedy, heartbreak, love, triumphs and failures that I have faced. The challenges that have crushed me, and that I later rose above from. The heartbreaks I experienced that broke me and that I have become a much stronger individual from over coming. And I wonder if I have already had enough experiences that have altered my life at this point, I am sure that I will encounter more, so maybe at some point I WILL have enough to write a book. But until then I will continue to write here and hopefully inspire even just one individual.

My hope in writing is to encourage others to chase their dreams. To learn to accept who they are. To love the person they are now, and the person they are striving to be.

We always have the ability to be our absolute best. It’s not always easy. We do not always stay on task. But if we set goals and work towards them, that’s all we can do. Continue to work towards greatness. To achieve the impossible. Sometimes we may fall off the path. The key is to get back at it. Recognize we have strayed from the path towards our goals and get back on track.

It’s easy to set goals and stick to it in the beginning. It’s hard to get back on track once we have strayed from these goals. I can admit to having a very difficult time getting back on track. In fact I am struggling with this right now. But I have committed to giving myself TWO more days to get back on track and then its 100% back to the grind.

It won’t be easy. But it will be worth it. My goal and I am putting it out there LOUD AND CLEAR for all to hold me accountable, is to lose 2 inches by April 24th off my waist.

I know this is possible because not long ago I lost 3 inches in just 3 short weeks, so to lose 2 in 5.5 is more than possible. All I need to do is commit. So here is my commitment written for all of you to keep me accountable. That is what its all about. Being accountable. That and sticking to the program and that is what I intend to do.

Here is to starting the next chapter to my journey. To overcoming new challenges. Challenges of “plateauing” which resulted in me becoming frustrated and ‘slacking’ not to mention I’ve been sick so I’ve had extra ‘slacking’ ability. If I have overcome the other challenges in my life that I have, then there is no reason I cannot over come this. So Sunday I start the 21-day Fix Extreme, because why not. I know I can crush it. So by April 9th, I will have lost at least 1-inch off my waist. So now I have to meet this goal and not disappoint.

In the meantime, I will relax these next two days mentally preparing myself, and hopefully kick this cold so I can jump in 1000%.

Are you with me? Have you set goals for yourself in the near future? Setting goals keeps you on tack and helps in keeping you accountable. I too can keep you accountable. All you need to do is ASK  and I will be there every step of the way.

Here’s to staying accountable.

XOXO,

this is me.

to trust or not to trust..

I was thinking about trust today. I am not even sure what got me thinking about it, it just kind of popped in my mind.

I was thinking about the whole concept of “trust is earned”. I do believe that certain levels of trust must be earned. For instance I am not going to share every little deep dark secret I hold with a complete stranger. But I think trust in it’s most general form does not necessarily need to be earned.

Waiting for trust to be earned may destroy new relationships, it may cause you to push some pretty wonderful people away.

Trust me, I am not one to easily trust, one may say I have “trust issues”. But this all stems from me constantly questioning myself, which I am doing much less of. With questioning myself less, and trusting myself more, I find that I am more open to trusting those around me.

Which leads me to this.. 

I think we need to trust ourselves first before we can trust others.

I believe in gut feelings, in instinctual feelings, in trusting our own judgements. 

If you have reason to question if you should trust someone then maybe they do not even deserve trust that can be later earned. 

You should be able to trust a person right from the start and in order to do so you need to trust your instincts to whether or not the person deserves that.

As humans, we are going to make mistakes, we are going to be blinded by new love, new promises and beauty, but deep down inside we know if something is telling us to turn around and run away.

Listen to yourself, listen to the doubts, listen to the hopefulness. Until you can trust what your inner self is telling you, how can you truly trust anyone else?

Trusting ourselves might be the most difficult. We are so scared of making mistakes, making the wrong decisions and letting in the wrong people. In order to trust yourself, you must accept that you will make mistakes sometimes, you will not always make the right decision and you will let people in that you never should have. But, this is all a part of life. Life is a learning process. We become stronger and better people because of all these things. 

To bring us back to the beginning, to trust or not to trust? I think this answer lies within our trust of ourselves and in our instincts. 

If your gut is telling you to trust someone, then by all means let them in and see where that takes you. Because although some levels of trust must be earned, all relationships must start with the basics of trust. 

Xoxo, 

To trusting myself. 

a new me

I was sitting quietly on the couch this morning. Just on my own, reading and listening to music.

Relaxing.

Needing nothing except my tea, a good book and some quiet acoustic covers playing in the background.

In doing this I began to think, REALLY THINK about the difference in the person I am from a year ago.

A year ago, I would have needed technology going, my next plans in motion, maybe a little chaos. But today I didn’t really need anything. I just needed me.

This is HUGE progress for me. To know that I have found the independence I deeply needed is so empowering.

Don’t get me wrong I like to keep busy, I like having a million and one things to do. I enjoy spending time with people. I enjoy having goals and plans to reach those goals. But I realized today, all I need to obtain those things is myself. I can do all of these things on my own time. The timelines and goals, and plans are all set because of ME. Because I choose to set them.

A year ago I relied on others to guide me, set goals, tell me where I was headed next. Knowing now that I am the one making all these decisions, that I rely on NO ONE to make those choices for me is so revitalizing and I am so PROUD of the direction I am headed, and where I came from.

Having the ability to be calm and relaxed in taking a day to sit back and enjoy the “little things” without worrying about what anyone else thinks I should be doing, without worrying about what I “should” be doing is an amazing feeling.

I’ve never before realized the importance of taking care of ourselves. I’ve never realized that it is so important to be selfish sometimes and create a better you, focus on your physical and mental health. It is important to put YOURSELF first sometimes. That doesn’t mean you stop caring about others, or that you stop making sacrifices (within reason) for the people you care about. But it does mean that you consider yourself sometimes.

Realize that you cannot be happy if you are always sacrificing what is important to you to satisfy those around you. In the end if you are not happy, you cannot give your all for the people you love. If those people love you, they will want to see you making choices that will allow you to live the happiest and fullest life possible.

Ask yourself this, would you want someone else to sacrifice their happiness for you? Would that make you happy? Of course it wouldn’t. So do you really think they want your happiness compromised?

You are important, never forget this.

I am so grateful to be in a place that I am happy and comfortable to sit by myself, with my own thoughts, on my own time to just focus on me. I am so grateful to have grown to a point in my life that I am content in doing this and that I really don’t need anything else in this moment. Only a yummy cup of tea. A good book. And maybe a cozy blanket.

I hope you all find peace in enjoying some relaxing moments, ON YOUR OWN this wintery Saturday, because we all deserve a few moments to ourselves.

XOXO,

a new me.

Don’t Stop.

Over the past couple weeks I’ve been struggling with what to write. But then I realized I should write about something that I feel passionate about and have been dealing with personally because that will be the most meaningful.

When ever you make a change in your life people will either follow you, disregard it, or judge you. It’s really that simple. I struggled in the beginning of my journey with the judgement, not so much because I cared what they thought, but because I am an awful over-thinker and would question the choices I was making.

Eventually I realized it doesn’t matter what they think. I am making choices that both make me happy and are for my best benefit, so if they do not agree with my choices then who cares, they are MY choices NOT their choices.

I also had to come to terms that often judgement and ridicule come from jealousy. Not necessarily jealousy of me, trust me I’m not conceited enough to think that, but jealousy that I am taking charge of my life and making the choices that make me happy which is not an easy thing for anyone to do.

Knowing this, it is easier to ignore. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt sometimes when I am being judged or treated differently simply because I am trying to be the best me and be the best to EVERYONE around me. But it does mean that I stand tall and I don’t let those people change the way I treat others or change the way I live my life.

Which brings me to a quote I recently came across that resonated deep within me  “If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint’, then by all means paint and that voice will be silenced.” – Vincent van Gogh

As much as I hate to admit, or even acknowledge, there will be people you encounter in your life that will simply tell you, you cannot do something because they do not want to see you succeed. This makes me so sad, because we should always be happy for the success of others. Not only does it make you feel better inside, but it makes those around you feel good as well. And I don’t know about you, but for me, seeing others happy makes me so very happy in return and fills my heart with an immense amount of warmth.

I have recently encountered a few times where this has affected me over the past little while, I am human. There are days I cannot look past it. But, I am letting the negative vibes and words of others affect me less and less with each day, which is a huge step and a step we should all be taking.

So I want to leave you all with these words, DON’T STOP! Simple right? But there is a lot of meaning there. It is easy to stop working hard when others are discouraging you and getting you down. But why would you want to overcome anything easy? All the greatest accomplishments are from hard work, determination and persistence. Not only that but after you have put forth those efforts, the results are worth so much more.

So let the haters hate, and the negative Nancy’s judge you, because they will always be out there. There are tons of  other people that are motivational, inspirational and supportive to help you ignore the negative ones, so remember those people during discouraging times.

I will always support those trying to be their best selves, especially those that support others. So if nothing else, you have me standing behind you cheering you on and encouraging you through every challenge and dream you wish to conquer.

So again, DON’T STOP, push forward and live the life you both want and deserve.

XOXO,

always supportive.

 

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